Review: Motherhood by Sheila Heti

36867983.jpg*I received this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.*

Title: Motherhood

Author: Sheila Heti

Publisher: Knopf Canada

Publication Date: May 1, 2018

ISBN: 9780345810540

Synopsis from Goodreads:
After the tumult of her 20s, the narrator of Sheila Heti’s new novel finds herself living a life into which she could bring a child. She’s with a man who has promised his support if she decides she wants to be a mother, “but you have to be sure.” Motherhood chronicles her struggle, under pressure from friends, culture and time, and seeking answers from family, strangers, mysticism and chance, to make a wise and moral choice, and to truly understand what is gained, and what is lost, when a woman becomes a mother. Heti treats the most universal and consequential decision of early to mid-adulthood–whether to have kids–with the candour and originality that have won her international acclaim, and that made How Should a Person Be? required reading for a generation of young women. The result is a courageous, funny and ultimately moving novel about motherhood, selfhood, and how–and for whom–to live.

Motherhood is an intense journey and rumination on what it means to be a mother and how that affects one’s relationships with friends, family, romantic partners, and even with oneself. The narrator explores her own thoughts and feelings versus the expectations that society and other outside forces impose on her. She shares her findings and her experiences with herself in a sort of journal/chronicle on womanhood and becoming a mother, but she also shares with the reader in an almost autobiographical way. The book is not super plot driven, however it presents more of an intellectual discussion, creating more of a conversational presentation rather than a story. We still get a glimpse into the window of the narrator’s life, her relationship troubles and triumphs, her friendships as they change over time as others choose the path of motherhood.

What I really enjoyed about this book was the very real confrontation that motherhood is not always an easy choice–that although one might feel a strong pull to become a mother sometimes, it is not always the right choice for that person. It is a decision that only each individual can make fore themselves. It’s not an easy choice and there is a lot of hope, anger, pain, fear, and excitement associated with either option. The narrator gets into the fine details of her feelings and her emotional highs and lows. She seeks out all options and confronts them, despite her own deep seeded anxieties, imagining what her life would be like in each scenario and if that outcome would really bring her life changing joy. She often avoids responsibility for her decisions by using fate and mysticism to address particular outcomes. The toss of a coin results in a yes or no answer as she navigates through series of questions about both really important and more mundane aspects of her life.

Ultimately, the narrator is on a voyage of self-discovery and self-learning. She is seeking out an understanding of meaning and motivation in her life. This book is cyclical, reflecting the essence of what it means to be a woman. Heti writes a beautiful and very feminine narration that I think many women will relate to. The narrator of this book could be any woman. She is so open and honest that I did feel like it was so easy to insert myself into her position, to understand her fears and frustrations, and to think that I myself have also had similar thoughts. It’s a wonderful introduction to starting a conversation about motherhood and where society places value (or doesn’t) on women and reproduction. An excellent read if you’re looking for something to get the wheels turning.

Happy reading!


Review: Invisible Ghosts by Robyn Schneider

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Title: Invisible Ghosts

Author: Robyn Schneider

Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books

Publication Date: June 5, 2018

ISBN: 9780062568106

Synopsis from Goodreads:
Rose Asher believes in ghosts. She should, since she has one for a best friend: Logan, her annoying, Netflix-addicted brother, who is forever stuck at fifteen. But Rose is growing up, and when an old friend moves back to Laguna Canyon and appears in her drama class, things get complicated. Jamie Aldridge is charming, confident, and a painful reminder of the life Rose has been missing out on since her brother’s death. She watches as Jamie easily rejoins their former friends–a group of magnificently silly theater nerds–while avoiding her so intensely that it must be deliberate. Yet when the two of them unexpectedly cross paths, Rose learns that Jamie has a secret of his own, one that changes everything. Rose finds herself drawn back into her old life–and to Jamie. But she quickly starts to suspect that he isn’t telling her the whole truth. All Rose knows is that it’s becoming harder to choose between the boy who makes her feel alive and the brother she isn’t ready to lose.

Invisible Ghosts is the perfect, quick, and relatively light summer read that you’re looking for this year. It’s a story that takes place a few years after the death of a young boy, Rose Asher’s brother, Logan. A terrible tragedy befell Logan and left Rose an only child. Life stopped for her at that point of his death and she retreated into herself. What she didn’t account for is Logan’s ghost sticking around to keep her company. Rose is now in high school and has caught the attention of an old friend and classmate of hers. As Jamie and Rose become closer, more strain is put on Rose’s relationship with her brother’s spirit.

This story is at times a little silly, however I found the characters to be really sweet and endearing. There was no crazy relationship drama, just kids falling for one another in an innocent and quite lovely way. The ghost aspect was a bit cutesy and was the source of the main drama, but I think it was an excellent vehicle for issues such as growing up, grief, mourning, letting go, coming-of-age, and conflict resolution. Rose is at a pivotal moment in her life where she can choose to remain where she is, or she can make decisions for her future. She can hold onto the past and reject growth and recovery, or she can accept the past and embrace the future, all while holding tightly onto the memories of her dear loved one.

It wasn’t an absolutely mind-blowing story, but it was an enjoyable bit of teenage fluff. It’s not too serious and not too heavy boots. The characters are all sweet and entertaining without getting too intense. If you need an easy pool/beach-side read, this is the one.

Happy reading!

Review: Vi by Kim Thuy

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Title: Vi

Author: Kim Thúy

Publisher: Random House Canada

Publication Date: April 10, 2018

ISBN: 9780735272798

Synopsis from Goodreads:
The youngest of four children and the only girl, Vi was given a name that meant “precious, tiny one,” destined to be cosseted and protected, the family’s little treasure. Daughter of an enterprising mother and a wealthy and spoiled father who never had to grow up, the Vietnam war tears their family asunder. While Vi and many of her family members escape, her father stays behind, and her family must fend for themselves in Canada. While her mother and brothers put down roots, life has different plans for Vi. As a young woman, she finds the world opening up to her. Taken under the wing of Ha, a worldly family friend and diplomat lover, Vi tests personal boundaries and crosses international ones, letting the winds of life buffet her. From Saigon to Montreal, from Suzhou to Boston to the fall of the Berlin Wall, she is witness to the immensity of the world, the intricate fabric of humanity, the complexity of love, the infinite possibilities before her. Ever the quiet observer, somehow she must find a way to finally take her place in the world.

Vi is an artful and masterful story full of vivid emotions and delicate chapters that paint snapshots of the main character, Vi’s life from birth into adulthood. I was swept away  by Thúy’s writing, drawn in by her thoughtful prose and quick tempo. Vi’s story is a beautiful one of love, family, immigration, transformation, and self-discovery. She is finding her place in the world, even if it means going against tradition and cultural expectations. She fights to become who she is destined to be, although it causes great distance between her and her family.

This is not a long book. I read the entire thing in 2 sittings over the course of a day. However brief, it is a breath of fresh air inviting you to take it all in. It’s certainly a story that I’ll treasure and read again. Because there are so few pages, there is not much I can delve into without giving away too much, but I encourage you to read this story. If you are a fan of Thúy’s other works then please do pick this one up. Thúy’s writing is so gorgeous. I have not yet read Ru and I read Mãn so long ago, that after reading Vi, I strongly feel that it is time for me to revisit her other novels.

Please read, and let me know what you think! 🙂

Happy reading!

Review: Panorama by Steve Kistulentz

35604732.jpgTitle: Panorama

Author: Steve Kistulentz

Publisher: Little, Brown and Company

Publication Date: March 6, 2018

ISBN: 9780316551762

Synopsis from Goodreads:
Richard MacMurray, a cable news talking head, is paid handsomely to pontificate on the issues of the moment. On New Year’s Day he is scheduled to appear on a prominent Sunday-morning talk show, but as he awaits the broadcast, the program is interrupted by news of a jet airline crash in Dallas killing everyone on board. Richard becomes aware that his sister Mary Beth was aboard the flight, leaving her six-year-old son Gabriel behind. Richard, his only living relative, must take Gabriel in. Panorama dramatizes the ever-widening impact of a single moment over the span of one day–on the victims and their loved ones, but also the plane’s mechanic, the airport janitor, and casual observers such as the teenager in a dingy motel who captures the plane’s final moments on video. Within this novel’s expansive scope, Kistulentz constructs an intimate, page-turning portrait of human loss.

This book was a big let down for me. When I first read the description for Panorama, I couldn’t wait to get my hands on these pages. It seemed like something a little different than what I’ve been reading lately and I was hopeful that the potential that the synopsis had would translate into an excellent story. I was sadly mistaken and was left very disappointed in this debut novel.

Panorama tells a story of an accident that stuns a community told from so many perspectives. Often times the use of multiple perspectives can be used to convey chaos or to demonstrate the reach of a particular event, which is what I think the author was going for. However, it created a disjointed narrative with many underdeveloped and unnecessary characters that really impeded on the main plot line of the story. I thought that the true and moving tale got lost among the voices and it was impossible to pull it out. I got a bit sick of things when a 3 page chapter introduced a perspective of a kennel worker taking care of a crash victim’s dog. Stories were left unfinished and loose ends were not tied, making for an unsatisfying read.

This may be harsh, but had I been the editor of this book, I would have slashed the first third of the book and told the author, “ok, how start here on page 150.” The story is not what is portrayed on the jacket or promo copy. It’s slow moving and there is so much extraneous build up at the beginning, for characters that I cared nothing about and had no emotional attachment to. I truly thought this was a story that was going to start out with a terrible tragedy (since that’s what the jacket tells us) and transforms into a heart-wrenching tale about a brother full of regrets after the death of his sister who tries to make amends and fill the boots of a father figure to a boy left orphaned in the wake of unthinkable tragedy. My hopes were dashed. Spoilers: we don’t ever get to see the uncle and nephew reunited in the wake of the devastation. Point 2 for dissatisfaction. The book ends with so many things left unresolved and so much story left untold.

My unrealized expectations have left me sorely disappointed in this title. I would dissuade you from reading. If you liked it better than I did, then let me know in a comment! I’d be thrilled to hear about a more positive reading experience.


Review: The Foreseeable Future by Emily Adrian

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Title: The Foreseeable Future

Author: Emily Adrian

Publisher: Dial Books

Publication Date: May 8, 2018

ISBN: 9780399538995

Synopsis from Goodreads:
Audrey’s life has been planned out for her since she was born, and now she’s supposed to attend Whedon College in the fall, where both of her parents work. But Audrey has a different plan in mind: She’s not going to attend college at all. She’s going to earn some money and move to Seattle, the city she’s loved since she was a child. And the best way to earn that money is by working the night shift at the local nursing home. Seth O’Malley works there, too, and a romance quickly blossoms between them. But things get complicated when Audrey saves the life of Cameron Suzuki, Seth’s ex. A video of her performing CPR at the beach goes viral, and suddenly, Audrey’s wanted for TV interviews and newspaper articles. And just when Audrey starts to love life at the nursing home–and life with Seth–Seattle comes knocking. Does she follow the path she set out for herself, even when it means leaving behind Seth and the cast of quirky patients she’s come to care for? Or does she embrace a future with Seth–at least for the foreseeable future–at the cost of abandoning her dreams?

Hmm, I both really enjoyed this book and didn’t all at the same time. I gave it 4 stars on Goodreads, but I think it was more of a 3.5 star book for me.

What did I like? Well, the story is a light, but still serious story of a girl who is following the path that everyone expects for her. Audrey is going to the college where both of her parents are–getting accepted more on her parents’ merit than her own. In a family full of intellectuals, she doesn’t want to let them down, but she can’t exactly compete with her parents and siblings on an academic level. When a summer job at a nursing home and a chance incident on the beach lead Audrey more towards the medical professions, she’s not sure that her newfound interests will garner her parents full support. This novel explores Audrey’s life as she develops a new romance that leads her to question everything she’s every thought she wanted, and inspires her to seek out goals that actually motivate and excite her.

What didn’t I like? Audrey and I are so different as people and so I found it incredibly difficult to relate to and understand her motivations. She’s impulsive to my calculated, she’s wild to my meticulous, she’s uncertain to my certainty. I think there are many, many teens out there in the world that would really get Audrey and be inspired by her story and the journey she takes in this novel. As for me, I found her impulsivity a bit infuriating. It leads her to sometimes appear to be less than honest as she changes her mind about drastic decisions in an instant and often at inconvenient or heat-of-the-moment times. The characters around her are incredibly forgiving of this character trait, but I, however, found it to be too much of a rollercoaster ride. I was angry at Audrey more than I could really enjoy the story.

As a summer beach/cottage read, I would definitely suggest this book! I think there are many people who will really like this story, but it wasn’t to my taste. I think it has many merits, but I am a reader who looks to relate strongly to the characters and to the story. In this case I didn’t unfortunately.

Let me know how you like this one! 🙂

Review: We Are All That’s Left by Carrie Arcos

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Title: We Are All That’s Left

Author: Carrie Arcos

Publisher: Philomel Books

Publication Date: May 15, 2018

ISBN: 9780399175541

Synopsis from Goodreads:
Zara and her mother, Nadja, have a strained relationship. Nadja just doesn’t understand Zara’s creative passion for, and self-expression through, photography. And Zara doesn’t know how to reach beyond their differences and connect to a closed-off mother who refuses to speak about her past in Bosnia. But when a bomb explodes as they’re shopping in their local farmers’ market in Rhode Island, Zara is left with PTSD–and her mother is left in a coma. Without the opportunity to get to know her mother, Zara is left with questions–not just about her mother, but about faith, religion, history, and her own path forward. As Zara tries to sort through her confusion, she meets Joseph, whose grandmother is also in the hospital, and whose exploration of religion and philosophy offer comfort and insight into Zara’s own line of thinking.

We Are All That’s Left tells an incredibly moving story about a family scarred by war–from years ago and even now in the present day. Zara knows so little of her own mother, but a terrorist attack leaves her questioning everything she’s ever known and longing to know her mother better. She and her mother struggle to connect across a vast divide of difference, but after an attack at the market leaves Zara with so many physical and emotional scars and leaves her mother in a coma, the walls begin to fall down. Perhaps these two women have more in common than either of them ever thought.

This story is a heavy read, but it addresses some incredibly important topics from family and generational disconnect to terrorism, sexual assault, genocide, murder, PTSD, war, discrimination, and racism. It takes these awful things and really shows that so much good can arise out of the darkness, offering a beacon of hope. In juxtaposition to these tough themes, Arcos story is, in its essence, about forgiveness, acceptance, love, friendship, strength, and faith. It is a multifaceted and layered story that exposes the true reality of our world today. No falseness, no decoration. Just honesty.  Zara’s world unfolds momentously as everything in her world shifts after the attack. It is not the safe and sheltered place it was before. She comes to understand her mother in this profound way that she could have never imagined. At the same time, she tries to come to terms with her new reality, and that seems like an impossible thing to do.

I think there are so many people, teens especially, that would relate to this story. Zara is this awesome and open character who is at a pivotal time in her life. She’s pursuing her passion and seeking her purpose when her world is upended. This story is a tumultuous coming of age with a protagonist who is so incredibly real and fierce. She’s a fighter and she wants her story to be told. This book combines history with the present, highlighting humanity’s greatest struggles and weaknesses, but also those things that are most beautiful.

There’s so much emotion to be hand in this small volume. Arcos has so many moving things to say. You really can’t miss out on this book.

Happy reading!

Review: The Strange Fascinations of Noah Hypnotik

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Title: The Strange Fascinations of Noah Hypnotik

Author: David Arnold

Publisher: Viking

Publication Date: May 22, 2018

ISBN: 9780525625698

Synopsis from Goodreads:
This is Noah Oakman → sixteen, Bowie believer, concise historian, disillusioned swimmer, son, brother, friend.

Then Noah → gets hypnotized.

Now Noah → sees changes—inexplicable scars, odd behaviors, rewritten histories—in all those around him. All except his Strange Fascinations . . .

This book was really intriguing! It’s unlike many YA novels that I’ve read. Think Bowie meets Vonnegut meets coming-of-age fiction and you get this glorious creation. Noah is a adrift in his world, uncertain of what he actually wants to do with his life as he stands on the precipice of graduation, but very certain of the plans that everyone else has for him. He’s in a bit of a slump–nothing too crazy, but big decisions are looming over him and grow closer every day. The thought of change and distance from everything and everyone he’s ever known have got him preemptively distancing himself from his friends and family a bit as he tries to gain some sort of understanding of his own goals. Then, Noah accidentally ends up in a situation he never expected. He gets hypnotized and when he wakes up, his whole world shifts on it’s axis. Nothing is as it was before, except for Noah himself. He begins to see his world in a new light.

Noah as a character is brilliant. He’s quirky and a bit of a lone wolf with just a few very close friends. He loves Bowie, dreads change, and is afraid of striking out on his own path. I think there are many teens out there who might relate to him quite well. I thought he was magnificently entertaining. He has multiples of the exact same outfit that he wears every day, he’s obsessed with this obscure author who writes these Vonnegut-esque stories, and he’s got this amazing dog who no longer knows how to bark. His friendships with Val and Alan are incredibly charming and light-hearted, but his friends don’t shy away in the slightest from addressing tough topics. Their story explores family, friendship, sexuality, love, self-discovery, acceptance, the future, and so much more.

Overall, I adored how light-hearted and heart-warming this story was in the end. This story will have you questioning what is the truth and how this world that Arnold creates actually functions. The characters will suck you right in and hopefully, you’ll enjoy this story as much as I did.